I wanted to wish you all a very Merry Christmas. Regardless what you celebrate tonight, I wish everyone finds peace, love, and light in these hard times.
And I’m not the kind of girl who fantasizes about this being a night in which everyone suddenly becomes happy and their families unite… No, that’s not my point. I myself I’m going to spend this night alone, estranged from my family, and I’d love things were different.
However, I do think it’s a great moment to open yourself to love. Love comes in many forms. Sometimes, and I can tell you I know this from experience, love comes in the form of distancing yourself so you can learn how to truly love yourself. Sometimes it comes from taking a step forward to reunite a broken family. Sometimes it comes from a happy family and friends and being grateful for them. Love is not what advertisement feeds us to force us to buy things. You are the only one who knows what kind of love you need in these Holidays.
But be open to it. That’s all I wanted to ask you.
If you believe in the Gospel (if you don’t, you can just skip this paragraph), remember that us Christians are meant to let Christ be born in our souls. It’s super difficult. My Faith is weak, it’s always been, and I wonder if I’ll be able to let Him be born in me. And this will sound very weird, but… as a trans woman, as an infertile woman by definition, there’s a sorts of need to be able to give birth to Love, because I will never be able to give birth. This is a thought I’m working on to accept within myself. Yeah, I guess I need to feel salvation. I guess everyone needs it, especially in these trying times, each in their own particular way.
Sending you all my love to all of you. Merry Christmas! 💓
Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men. (Luke 2: 14)