Being a techie millennial girl means that I have been exposed to the worst of the worst algorithmic poisoning ever. It’s only now, after I’ve withdrawn from all poisonous platforms I was on, that I’m realizing the depth of how much recommendation algorithms both on social media and other platforms (e.g. GitHub) have managed to break my psyche, my thought processes, hijacked my interests and natural desire for connection, and sank me into a terrifying spiral. It’s a known story. So, instead of focusing on the past and on the darkness those platforms led me to, I want to focus this post on the future, as an important part of recovering from an addiction (which this is) is to build a new life and new habits that make the old thing lose its power.

This is probably going to be a way too personal post. So, if you’re not into this kind of thing, no problem. I’m writing this after I’ve been quite inactive around here, and not coding that much. Life has been hard since summer and I’ve also been trying to pursue a different writing project in a different place. After some months dealing with a social media-influenced platform I won’t name, but which you’d probably correctly deduce, I creep back here, where I feel safe but not seen… because feeling seen feels immensely uncomfortable and fake.

I’m writing this while I’m pondering whether a project of mine is ready for its first release, 0.1. I don’t like to rush things out, even though I do believe in Release early, release often, so I’ve been thinking about whether it is time or not… and that led me to a different train of thought I wanted to share with you, especially people out there who, like me, are amateurs with little experience and who only write small projects.

You tell your laptop to “suspend to RAM.” Are you really sure that’s what your system just did? I was utterly surprised, when I purchased my current laptop (a model of the HP 15 series that was released in 2024), that things had changed since the last laptop I had bought back in 2013.¹ Power management has changed, and things smell a lot of “mobile convergence” these days.

It’s funny because using Linux shields you from one day discovering that your 10 years old PC doesn’t work anymore. Linux supports old systems by philosophy, where MacOS and Windows are picky about how old your laptop, especially laptops, is. Microsoft is more lenient on the software side of things, such that only until recently you still could run old Win16 software on modern Windows versions. When it comes to hardware, though, good luck if your system doesn’t come with UEFI and “certified” hardware, and good luck in a couple of years.

This is a small piece of writing that will show the many trades I’m a jack of. Rather unfortunately, though, because I wish I never had to write. The Generative AI-based assistants situation isn’t about technology, resources consumption, or copyright anymore. It’s about who we think we are as a human species, what we think we deserve from ourselves, and a battle for keeping our collective and individual mental health in good shape.